We Will Be OK

Last questions I was asked last night by one of my kids “can he send me away?” and “will he break up our family?” Truly broke my heart and made for a restless night where my brain wouldn’t shut down and find peace. No child should feel that way. I felt inadequate as a parent, I could hug him tight and tell him all would be ok but that still didn’t feel like enough to settle his soul.
This morning I broke the news that Trump won and that we would move forward with respect. Our love is strong, we care about people and we are kind. We will be ok. Nothing will break apart our family, we will always have love.
Emotions are funny, last night was filled with disbelief and hope that I would wake up with the tables turning back to Hilary’s favor. I mean, how could ALL the polls/predictions be wrong? This morning, there was worry and anger and a little snarkiness – guess voting 3rd party to make a statement and not vote for the “lesser of two evils” really did matter! Now I have to have faith and hope, that Trump will drop the act and be a decent person and do what he can to unite a country divided.
There is a reason that this is hard to swallow for me, it’s not that my person lost, it’s that the person who won did it in a way that goes against everything I believe. It reminds me of times my kids have had issues with a “popular” kid being mean to them and everyone follows the popular kid and I tell mine to remain kind and turn the other cheek. That is SO hard to do! Sometimes you just want to stand up and fight back. This feels so much like the grown-up version of that same school yard drama.

So many emotions, but have to stay strong and kind and true to myself and my family and my daughter will be told daily that she can accomplish anything.

I'm With Her

This picture of Erin is why I voted for Hilary.  Every time we get it the car, she wants to sit by the window and feel the wind and watch the world go by and in that moment every possibility is open to her, she can do ANYTHING.
She doesn’t understand the gravity of today, but I sure feel it.  Today our county will elect a woman president.  It’s a huge deal!  I envision girls all over the nation watching history in the making and mothers and grandmothers beaming with pride.  The feeling is not unlike 8 years ago, when I saw doors open for my sons of color, as they watched Obama sworn into office.
It’s a good day for the United States.  Hilary is strong and competent.  I am proud we have come so far as a country where a woman can hold the highest office.