Guessing most of you who read my blog don’t know that I used to be a smoker.  Not a  two pack a dayer or anything like that, but it was a part of my life.  I enjoyed it and found it relaxing even.
I was a Camel girl, then turned to Marlboro Reds.  Dee wasn’t a fan, but put up with my habit (truth is, we would be at a bar and I would think I was hiding it…ha, like that’s possible) but I quit for good the day my dear friend was diagnosed with lung cancer.
Still, I have a fondness for Marlboros – even won a trip from them that ended up not working out for whatever reason, but they sent me a $4000 check to compensate.
It’s not often, maybe a time or two when I am out having a drink with friends, but there are times that I miss it.   Don’t get me wrong, I don’t ever want to be a smoker again, but sometimes I think about it.
So on with my story…last week as I was driving to a board meeting in Silverdale, I had that “wow, I really miss smoking” thought run through my mind.  A smile crossed my face and I was lost in the memory until my boys started arguing and brought me back to reality.  I didn’t think another thing of it until we were at the meeting.  Levi had asked to use the restroom in the restaurant and when he came back, he came up to me and said, “found these in the men’s room” and dropped a pack of Marlboro Reds on the table I was sitting at.  You would have thought he dropped a bag of crystal meth on the table by the shocked reactions, but I knew he was just doing the right thing and had no interest in the cigarettes.  He was more curious about them and how they would have ended up there rather than what they were.  His birthmom smokes, so he wanted to give them to her.  Very sweet, but a conversation about how you don’t gift found cigarettes to other people and that it, perhaps, wasn’t really appropriate for him to be giving her cigarettes in the first place.
As I drove home, it made me really think about the world and the brain and how it’s all interconnected, the thoughts and happenings….deep, huh?
(and no – I will not be going out to buy Marlboro Reds anytime soon!)